Amy Duggar King is pulling back the curtain on what it was really like growing up Duggar — and it wasn’t all sweet tea and sibling sing-alongs.

The 38-year-old niece of Jim Bob and Michelle Duggar is opening up about her time around the 19 Kids and Counting family, revealing how her different lifestyle made her the black sheep — or in her own words, the “crazy cousin.”

Although she wasn’t part of the main Duggar household, Amy appeared often on the family’s hit TLC show.

But behind the scenes, the emotional toll of being judged by her extended family was something she quietly carried.

“I would leave crying after filming and feeling so bogged down,” she told E! News. “I just felt so misunderstood.”

Amy’s choices — wearing jeans, cutting her hair, dating — made her stand out in a family known for strict religious rules and modesty standards.

“Honestly, I was kind of taken aback,” she admitted, reacting to how many of her cousins now embrace the very things she was once criticized for.

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Amy added, “So now you’re wearing jeans. Now you’re cutting your hair. The things that were very evil and rebellious — the things I was judged for — are now completely normal.”

Despite the pain, Amy hasn’t stayed silent. Over the years, she’s continued to speak out against what she calls hypocrisy within the Duggar clan.

Duggar TV Dynasty

Amy first appeared on 19 Kids and Counting, TLC’s reality series that followed Jim Bob and Michelle Duggar and their 19 children.

The show premiered in 2008 and quickly became one of TLC’s most watched and talked-about series, spotlighting the family’s ultra-conservative, faith-based lifestyle in Arkansas.

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While Amy wasn’t featured in every episode, her occasional appearances made her the “relatable one” — someone many viewers could identify with, especially compared to her more tightly controlled cousins.

The show ran for 10 seasons and 18 TV specials before ending abruptly in 2015, following Josh Duggar’s molestation scandal.

‘Counting On’ — A New Era, Same Old Pressure

After 19 Kids and Counting was canceled, the family returned to TLC with Counting On, a spinoff focused on the older Duggar daughters — including Jessa, Jinger, Jill and Joy-Anna — as they started families of their own.

Amy didn’t appear regularly on Counting On, but the show carried forward many of the same rules and expectations that had once left her on the outside.

Even as her cousins slowly began embracing lifestyle changes, like jeans and haircuts, Amy remained a symbol of what had once been considered “rebellious.”

Counting On aired for 11 seasons before being canceled in 2021, quietly closing the chapter on the Duggar family’s television legacy — and perhaps finally validating Amy’s experience along the way.